Blood is Thicker then Water
Wednesday, August 29, 2007, 05:19 AM [General]
I went to the doctor's for my white cell count being high. So far I don't know anything yet. I have to wait three weeks before I find anything out. The doctor hasn't told me what he thinks it could be. I know John said that it could be an infection but i am still worried it could be the other big thing. The big C. It has been a fear of mine that I might get Cancer someday because it runs through both sides of my family. I know stupid to worry about it because I know it may be just an infection but I have been going through so much the the past three years with Depression and Anxiety. I am always afraid the worst is going to happen. I use to say it was to prepare myself for what could happen but I know that is not true. I am just pessimistic and I hate that because I know thinking negative thoughts will bring negative to you but I find it so hard not to think that way. Even now I am just beating myself up. I wish I knew how to stop.
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I have just been thru the "big C scare", and my husband before me last year. Luckily, we both are fine with no cancer. I would say that you are right, you must remain positive at all times. I was scared and nervous until I went for my CAT scan and there was a lady in there who was waiting for her husband. She was talking about how mad he was at her because she had left her oxygen at home. She said it had just been delivered, and this was the 5th round of cancer she had fought, so she ought to know what she could live without for a few hours. 5th round! And here she was still going strong at about 70-75 and she had her first "round" over 20 years ago! I guess my fears were nothing and if she could make it, so could I!
HerbalpaganI felt better after that and was able to meditate and give my fears to the Goddess.
My husband on the other hand, dealt with it by researching everything on the web with my symptoms. Good luck to you, I will think positive energy your way.
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